Sometimes I forget that I have a blog, at least a lot times I feel like it's something I forget. But today is a writing day, because writing soothes my soul and makes me feel like my words make sense, even when they don't. Not at all.

I just want to be what God wants me to be. And even though I say this a lot, it's terribly hard. How are we ever sure what God wants, some would ask me. And I mean, I have no idea. I just try to find what is right and chase after it. Because if there is anything good and right in this world, it only comes from God. This is why I think big decisions through so awkwardly long and hard. This is why I am always wanting to learn and take in more information, decide things and think about them.

There are certain things I'd love to do with my life. But it's not really my life, is it? I know that I am a part of something bigger. And my efforts should be centered on something bigger than me. The only thing bigger than me, the only thing in the entire universe, that actually matters.

It sounds so easy in words.